Tuesday, September 18, 2007
3.3OPM
stoning in front of the computer browsing through CNA website with my heavy eyelids. I really feel like dozing off. Maybe it might be a blessing in disguise for me to get to know what’s happening around me and wont be frog in the well. But someone woke me up. Thanks to my mum. She called to scold me and scream over through my phone saying that my room is very messy. Hello!!??? Is Val the one creating the mess. And I find that her definition of mess is utterly unreasonable. I didn’t utter a single sound when she say she wants to study in my room already yet now WTF she still scream at me I think for full 5mins. Piss off. Worse come to worse I do my own laundry if that would make her SHUT UP. I didn’t ask her to do the laundry for me. I didn’t ask her to pack the room for me. You could shrugged off and let me do it during my free time. You really think your daughter very free. 24-7 staying at home arz..
Make use of this time to ponder over certain things. On the outside life seems to be routine but in the inner part, is chaotic. I’m very tiring. Why things always clashed with each other and have to force me to make a choice and have to lie one other party. Feel guilty at timesL Maybe people might be concern how I am or just a simple question why didn’t you come etc have become such a great pressure to me.
At times I really want to slack at home and do nothing. The feeling was pretty shiok just spend the time watching tv program nua-ing on the bed.
I’ve finish my snacks le. Feeling restless againL if carry on like this I think I would definitely become a big fat pig. Argh.